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Aulden had a dream that night. In the dream one of his co-workers joined an equestrian group; a horse club. Aulden's co-worker said, "I'm a horse member." Aulden laughed and said, "You mean you're a horse club member." The man repeated, "I'm a horse member!" Aulden laughed until he woke himself. He looked up at the ceiling and said, "a horse member," and laughed again. They returned to the Church at the Center of Consciousness, Aulden and his companions, where they could watch images forming in the mist - their favorite leisure activity. Aulden checked the list to see what day they were watching next: September 1. Before setting the machine to that date he remembered that the Wizard Herman said, "Tell us how it goes." He was supposed to talk with Herman after confronting the Sorceress. Aulden took hold of The Wind's sleeve and said urgently, "I was supposed to see Herman after Remember?" Poseidon looked up from his seat at the two of them and said, "We've got popcorn." Aulden excused himself, saying, "It won't take long. We'll be right back." Aulden and The Wind boarded the bus and soon were at Herman's door. The Wizard answered their knocking, looked them over, and said, "Well?" "You asked me to tell you how the Sorceress thing goes," Aulden reminded him. As if suddenly remembering, Herman opened the door wider, and said, "Come in! Could you sit here and quit being so distracted. Tell me about your trip." Aulden told the whole story. Herman wasn't satisfied. He said, "Your stomach still hurts." Aulden confessed, "It hurts a little." Herman told him, "Go back to her, and remind her to remove the stomach pain spell." "I didn't think of it because I had the four questions and she wouldn't give a straight answer," Aulden said apologetically. The Wizard shook his head and responded, "You and your four questions." Aulden took a deep breath. "I feel like I'm in a hurry to go someplace all the time." The Wizard understood, and said, "I know. Sit with me then." They sat at a dining table for several minutes without speaking, and then Herman asked, "Why are you in a hurry?" Aulden answered, "We need to go see the sorceress." "Are you in a hurry about it?" Herman asked. Aulden thought, and said, "I'm not in a hurry. Are you in a hurry?" The Wizard said, "I'm not in a hurry." With that, Aulden stood to leave, saying, "Thank you Wizard Herman. I value your advice so much." Herman replied, "Don't be pissy. Now go! Come back and see me sometime, okay?" The trip was taking longer than Aulden expected. At the door of her tower, Victory greeted them with a friendly smile. "Aulden! Come in." Aulden entered, and said immediately, "I want to ask you to do something for me. I need you to remove the spell that's hurting my stomach." She appeared sympathetic, but said, "You'll need a healer. There's a person you saw in a dream last night who can help." Aulden began to ask, "How did you know about ?" but he stopped. She gave a curtsy to let him know that his dreams were no secret to her. Aulden asked, "You mean 'horse member'?" She simply nodded so Aulden continued, "I like your hair short, Victory. Are you lonely in this tower by yourself?" Victory sighed, and said, "I was made to be here." Without hesitation, Aulden replied, "You were made to be with a prince. The tower here is part of the problem." She asked, "Do you have a prince?" Aulden observed, "I think I am the prince." Victory questioned, "Are you sure?" "No," Aulden confessed, "I'll watch. I'll look for him." As Aulden and The Wind walked back to the bus, Aulden speculated, "Of course! The Rapunzel story doesn't end with her in the tower! There has to be a prince. Probably a blind prince like the one in the story because of the thorns and the projection metaphor." The Wind casually advised, "Don't think too far ahead of yourself." "We need to hurry," Aulden remembered, "I told Poseidon we'd be right back." The Wind assured Aulden, "He doesn't mind waiting." They boarded the bus and Aulden asked the Bus Driver, "Do you think you can take us to a man who said he's a horse member?" The Bus Driver closed the door behind them and said, "Have a seat." The bus went past Aulden's childhood house and hometown, and then through the campus of the college he attended - places often seen on a drive through Aulden's head. Along the drive Aulden could hear an orchestra playing, primarily the sound of an oboe. Aulden said to the Bus Driver, "I think we need to find an orchestra." The Bus Driver responded, "We'll see." The bus came to a farm with boarding stables and a track for training horses. Outside one of the buildings was a man holding a pitchfork. The Bus Driver stopped alongside him and opened the doors. "I'm Aulden Schlief, and this is my friend The Wind. We're looking for a man who says he's a horse member." The fellow leaned onto the handle of his pitchfork and laughed; he laughed and motioned toward the boarding stables, saying, "Go on and look in there." In the lane between rows of stalls, Aulden called, "Hello? Is anyone here?" An answer came from the stall at the far end, "I'm here." Looking into the stall, Aulden said, "Hi. We're looking for a member of a horse club." The man inside the stall said, "Yes, I'm a horse member." Aulden knew they'd found their man. He studied the fellow, and asked, "Were you working in here, cleaning, or were you sleeping?" The man smiled and answered, "Yeah." Again, he introduced himself, "I'm Aulden Schlief and this is my associate, The Wind. What's your name?" The man looked Aulden in the eye and said, "I am Princely." Aulden asked, "Are you really?" With a dead-serious gaze, the man affirmed, "I really am." Aulden was overjoyed, and said, "I have so many questions for you! But let me ask, how are you?" Aulden still expected Princely to be blind, although he didn't appear to be. Princely answered, "It's funny you should ask. Look at me. I've got a bum leg." He opened the door to the stall and stepped out, using a cane as he walked. "Tell me, Princely, what is your function in my life?" Princely looked at Aulden and said, "Have we met before?" Aulden suddenly realized that he'd seen this man occasionally walking in the distance, using the cane. Aulden responded, "I thought that was you!" Princely asked, "Who are you?" Aulden explained, "I'm the person whose head you walk around in." Princely understood, and said, "Oh, well then my function is to keep going." "I thought you were instinct," Aulden speculated. "The horse is instinct and it helps me keep going," Princely explained. Aulden asked, "What about sexual urges?" Princely explained, "Those are instinct, and they help me keep going." "Going where?" Aulden questioned. "Just going," Princely replied. Aulden asked the next of the four questions, "What do you have for me?" Princely said, "When it's difficult, I'll carry you along." "With your bum leg?" Aulden asked. "I can do it," Princely told him. "What do you need from me?" Aulden asked. Princely responded, "What can you do for me?" Aulden said, frankly, "I can take you to a woman named Victory," and his enthusiasm grew as he added, "Come with us! I want you to meet her!" Princely agreed, and off they went in the bus with their archetypal Bus Driver who always knew where to take them. During the bus ride, Aulden said, "Princely, I have a bum leg, too. How did you hurt you leg?" Princely explained, "It just started to happen. I can't tell you why." "Do you remember when it happened?" Aulden asked him. "When you weren't around," Princely recalled. Aulden was getting a sense of this fellow, and said, "I need to stay aware of you. Keep going - you don't give up, do you?" "Not me, no," Princely assured him. Aulden asked, "Tell me about the horse club. Why did you join?" Princely said, simply, "I like horses. They keep going." "What else about horses? Why do you call yourself a horse member?" Princely thought the answer was obvious, and said, "I'm a member of the club." Aulden pressed him, "But why 'horse member' and not a horse club member?" "I never thought about it," Princely realized, "I guess I have some horseness in me." The bus came to a stop and the Bus Driver announced, "Victory's tower." Aulden said to his companions, "We're here," and as they stood The Wind said to Aulden, "No hurry, remember." The next day while at work delivering mail,
Aulden thought about Princely. Aulden felt proud of Princely's
keep-going-ness, but what if that was a mistake? What if Princely
needed something more in order to be integrated, just as Victory
needed a confrontation? This journey started as a quest to cure
obsession, which might be the dark side of "keep going."
Princely had that "bum leg" and walked with a cane.
Did he need a healing? Aulden was aware that all these people
were in his head and were parts of him. But he also recognized
that it was better to let the story play out like a personal
mythology without interfering by saying, "This is me."
After he entered, Aulden introduced them, "Victory, this is Princely. Princely, this is Victory." Princely gazed at her without speaking. She asked him, "Would you like to sit down?" He sat, but continued to silently watch her. Victory said, "Do you want to say anything?" To that Princely replied, "No, I'll just look at you." "Isn't that weird?" Victory pointed out. Princely asked, "Is it weird that I just want to sit?" She answered, "Kind of." Princely said, "Call me weird then. My purpose is to simply keep going, one step at a time." Victory replied, "My purpose is to reveal mystery, step by step." Then she turned to Aulden and asked, "Can we be alone now?" Aulden, surprised at the abruptness, said, "I think so. I think we're done here." Before Aulden could turn toward the door, Victory gave him a hug and Aulden realized she was crying. He felt perplexed by this, and pieced together in his mind, "Princely keeps going step by step and Victory reveals mystery step by step, and for some reason those two have a connection. The alternative to having an obsession is to live like that." As they walked to the bus, Aulden said to The Wind, "She's not an autonomous complex anymore." The Wind noted, "She's not a complex anymore. The complex has transformed to the purely archetypal." Aulden asked, "Is it weird that you and the archetypal figures use Jungian terms?" "No," The Wind answered, "Because we speak your language." Aulden said, "I don't even know if I use these terms the right way." "Doesn't matter," The Wind assured him, "They're your terms. We speak your language." Aulden glanced once more at Victory's tower,
and said, "Let's go back to watch the images in the Church
at the Center of Consciousness, okay?" |